15 months later and 10 lbs heavier

But in the mean time I have signed up for a marathon. So the exercise is at least getting on track. As for food.... I am going to set one goal a week and just go from there with my goal being one pound a week... This week, I will focus on not eating after 7:00. Next week I'll start back on WW and work with living with points. I am 187, terrible, but not a huge surprise. Time to get back at it and realize it's just going to be a long road...
Now 187
goal 137
difference = 50 lbs

So, it will take about 1 year to get to my goal. It starts today...

I'll try posting a picture tomorrow. I'll take a pic a week to detail the progress...

Session 2

I think I was in a deeper 'hypno' state this time. or maybe I was just about to fall asleep. Hmm....

I didn't come away feeling like I did last week. Which was almost elated, because of what I saw and heard in the corner of the room last week. In way, not seeing it this week only senghtens what I believe I saw and heard. At any rate it can not be duplicated at will.

What I did see...

Ki was talking me through a 'plateau' and on the otherside of the plateau I was standing on the top of a montain, looking back on all I had done to get to the top. When I looked forward, a pair of hands and a lot od white fabric engulfed my face and I swear I heard, 'you are my child' It was all very peaceful and exhilerating, but again, not on the level of last week.

Last week I had prayed quite a bit leading up to the 1st session. This week not so much. I will get back in to the morning and evening prayers as it calms me down as well.

In terms of weight loss, i am down 7.4 according to WW, a little more on my scale. This is where I tend to plateau so I will have to watch myself this weekend in San Antonio. Lord Help me!

Hypnosis:

Hypnosis:
Session 1
Today was my first hypnosis session and it was very relaxing and comforting. The woman who performed the session is a life coach to a friend of mine who just looks great and is doing something right with her life so I thought I would give it a try and see how it works for me. The session went very well and although I was completely conscience, I was in an extremely relaxed state of mind.

I’m writing this down now so I don’t forget. But at one point she told me to walk down some stairs. A marble staircase. When I get to the bottom I would be in a complete state of relaxation. She would lead me down step by step. As she was talking me through this, I had an image that this was a marble staircase to a church in Rome. An ancient one, I’m not even sure I know what a catacomb is, but that’s where the stair lead to, the heart of the church. And at the bottom of the stairs was God waiting for me. Each step took me a little closer. When I got to the bottom of the stairs I just stood there trying to get my eyes adjusted. As I stood, there God had moved to the corner of the room and just kept saying ‘I told you I would be here. I told you, you weren’t alone and that I would be here. Do you believe me now?’
I told you I would be here. Over and over that one phrase. I told you.

I am looking forward to the next session.

Day one, Week One

This has become my never ending battle. I had lost nearly 40 pounds and over the course of 3 years have gained about 35 of that 40 back. But tomorrow is the beginning. I joined WW and I am even going to get hypnotized on Tues. Right now my immediate goal is to lose 10 pounds so I can buy season 9 of Southpark on itunes. Next ten pounds then season 10.
current stats:
weight - 179
pants - size 12/14

goal
weight under 145
pants 8

I was so cute in an 8. And Proud. I was so proud of what I had accomplished. I can't wait to be proud of myself again. To have will power again. To make myself more important then the food or fitting in with friends.

Weigh ins on Wednesday. Hopefully I will post before then, assuming I can still scam free internet of my neighbor. I'm in a debt loss mode as well.